As her head was reeling, Darius was making certain it stayed that way, and losing himself to his own senses in the process. Tugging on her earlobe with his teeth and dragging his nails down her back causing her to arch up and give him a tantalizing veiw. His lips kissed her throat, his teeth skimming her skin, causing a small ripple of blood to errupt from her veins. Gasping he quickly licked the wound and gingerly stood up and away from her, reining his control. Wondering what had happened she lifted herself to her elbows and gave him a puzzled look. He reached into the closet and grabbed a garment, tossing it at her, and removing himself from the room. Knowing she had upset him did nothing for the night which was anything but 'Nice.' It turned from awkward and silent to stressfull and tense. By the time they returned to the house about two hours later they were both willing to go seperate ways and pretend the other didn't exist. Pheonix wandered gradually to her room and sat on the bed staring at nothing in particular. She seen the abandoned clothing scattered across the floor, and the closet door open in haste, and something she didn't expect. On the sheets just below the pillow was a perfect dot, darker than you'd expect of blood, although she recognized it as such. Suddenly she remembered the tiny pain at her throat and Darius' sudden haste to leave. She sat on the edge of her bed and cried. Nothing could keep her tears in. Why couldn't he finish what he had started? Why was her essence so very repulsive to him, now that she wanted him to take it?
 Darius walked slowly, taking in the people who passed him and the people who stared and the people who might make a good meal. Passing stores selling clothing and jewellery, he paused, staring in the window at the ruby necklace perched there. Knowing she would have it, if for no other reason than he wanted to give it to her, he walked into the store. A few moments later he walked out again, eyes intensely blue, more so than any human could comprehend, and a box in his hand containing a single red ruby on a white gold chain.
 Still crying she felt him enter the house and prepared to leave, not wanting to be near him at all, not wanting him to see the despair and hurt in her eyes. He was there before she could escape him. He seen the tears and the hurt there and felt it as keenly. He dropped the box, the necklace tumbling out, and walked to her wrapping her in his arms cradling her to him. Soaking his shirt with her tears she placed her chin on his shoulder eyes tightly closed and mindlessly pressed kisses to his throat. Although their blood held no appeal to one another, it was still apart of the longing that they held between them. Her eyes open, she noticed the box and something shiny in it. She dropped her arms and walked over to where it had spilled out of the box, and picked it up. Gasping at the near perfection and beauty she found in the single jewel she turned and hugged him more feircely than she thought possible. Knowing he was forgiven he careressed her mind with his thoughts, Why were you crying love? Am I so horrible? He felt her hesitant reply I must be the horrible one, you can't even bear to have a single drop of me without running. What am I to think Darius? He held her tighter and surrounded her with himself Don't think. Know that you are mine and that I can't help but blame myself for recruiting you as a monster, for bringing you closer to hell. When the time is right you will be in hell, because there is nothing to reverse the effects I have already brought upon you. If there were... His thought drifted off. Pheonix stepped back and turned holding the necklace in place for him to clasp. The instant he finished, she was gone, leaving a single thought with him, I'm glad there isn't.

The black tile in the foyer clicked under her shoes when she entered the house.Standing there, her face gave away every emotion instantaneously. Not that she could hide anything from Darius anyway. Her love, hate, denial, and fear showed clearly in her eyes, and the set of her jaw. He turned his head slowly in her direction as he too felt her presence and the blatant emotion removed itself from her face, she couldn't afford to show so much, not with him. He turned back to the window secondarily and stood up, and without blinking was on the next floor up standing on the balcony looking down at her. "What are your plans for the evening? I was thinking we could do something..." he hesitated "Nice."  Her brows arched over her emerald eyes and the smirked "Sounds... Great." She replied trying to smother her giggles of amusement, "Just let me go get some fresh clothes on." Looking finally at her overall appearance he realized some of her supper had missed her mouth and was staining her shirt incriminating and delicious. He was to her in a flash and carrying her back up the stairs, his mouth hard on hers the whole while. Her arms were thrown around his neck and her eyes closed tight devouring him with every other enhanced sense. His smell, like night time revved up, and his taste of midnight honey and bitter chocolate. He laid her down on the bed and looked down and whispered her name softly, his voice like butterfly wings, "Pheonix." Looking up at him she shuddered as her senses became overwhelmed and all she could think of was him, and his touch. His hands undressing her and his teeth nibbling her skin. If thought were possible she would be hoping he felt the same, and knowing he likely didn't...

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Confusion denies my heart’s desire
Consumption fills my soul without need
Hurt demands my brain redemption
Sanction my painful wrist
Survive my controlling hands
Love my wicked memories
Destroy my pretty dreams
Crush my toes into ash

They Will Know
Unheard screams
Unseen tears
That fall from my eyes
But it seems no one cares
Not that they know
I let them see my smiles
Let them hear me laugh
While all the while a voice yells in my head
No where to turn
There is no one there
All around me
They laugh and they smile
These tears feel like acid
These screams taste like poison
They make me weak
I can’t be human
I can solve it all
I can let them see
Everything inside of me
A warm bath drawn
I sink into the water
The acid tears eat my cheeks
But the screams just won’t come
My wrists burn
As the blade slices and tears
ripping down walls
Parting my skin
so blood can flow
and they won’t know
why
Because all they seen were smiles
and all the heard was laughter
They will all know now
about
the unheard screams
the unseen tears

What was once
What was once
Is no more
What goes up
Must come down
Obvious solutions
Must always go wrong
No luck
Just opinion
Like a singer’s song

The River
As I sit beside the river
Giving it my pain
The river washes it away
But when you lift a stone
It leaves behind a mirky gray
It beckons me for more secrets
And I cry as I give them away
Then I start to walk away
And as I walk automatically
As if on cruise control
The unforgiving pain returns
So I turn around and go sit down
On a rock that lines the rivers’ shore
I feel his presence
And yearn for his touch
As if a ghost, I feel him with me
Except he’s not dead, neither is he there
I turn and walk a few feet away
The pain returns
The rivers’ beckoning strong
So I turn and with a flying leap
I give myself to the rivers’ rocks
As they bash
And the water churns
I see him only in my mind
Waiting for me
On the rivers’ shore
I fight the curent
But it’s too late
I wake to see the flashing lights
If only for a second he’s by my side
But he’s crying and holding me tight
I try to explain that I’m alright
Then I realize the facts
Like a painful blow
I gave in too soon
And I know it’s cruel
But I wish he’d been in that river too.